down? should we?

ok! I've learnt my lesson!

this morning was my 4th paper.... Pharmacology...
normally what i do is I master every lecture, by lecture... menjelang exam baru revise balik dan menghafal fakta2... however... ntah...

long story short.... i didn't perform that well in my pharmacology exam this morning... susah!...
exam tadi agak banyak la soalan yang pasti-x pasti... bnyk confuse waktu jawab........
inadequate preparation i have concluded as the source...ntah la... salah sendiri... bertangguh-tangguh, anime! (seriously, I finished 2 whole series!)... .....teruk..... malam tu terpaksa stay up nak cover....... "alamak, bnyk la pulak" ...so timbul la perasaan 'cuak' ntuk exam (that's not a good thing btw)... exams should be entered with confidence.... .

Pastu Pharmacology ada 3 paper... paper last 30 minutes... satu sheet je....so i answered cam biasa... pas2 pengawas cakap... you have 5 minutes left!... so i checked my answer sheet, turn it around... omg! kat belakang pun printed... ingatkan depan je printed tadi!... kelam kabut menjawab... huhu... dah habis masa pun menjawab lagi... soklan last hentam...

lesson learnt.... period

So bila habis exam tu aku 'down' gila /o_O\tidak!.... mad at myself... thoughts like 'lulus pun jadi la' went through my head... memang rasa 'down' lah... balik, solat Zohor then terus tido coz 'down'+ngantok.... when i woke up, changed my ym status message > down.........
wah!.. terharu..... ramai yang bagi semangat balik... Fadilah, Farhana, Aisyah, Abdul Rahman, Farhana, Ada and ramai lagi (mane pergi the guys?) Thanks y'all! lifted my spirit. was happy there are people concerned out there, walaupun diri ini bnyk kelemahan....
They 'woke me up', kita dah usaha, tinggal ntuk kita bertawakal. dan juga berdoa. I mean, astaghfirullah... habis exam tu terus 'kenapa?' 'WTF!' etc.... had forgotten about all of that... ikut perasaan... astaghfirullah...
Itulah kawan right? remind us when we forget (we tend to a lot)...
*(WTF = What the Fish!)

So,

DOWN? SHOULD WE?
I'd say no to that... kita usaha setakat mampu, then tawakal... have faith... kan?... no use sulking on the past... not like you can go back and fix it... what's done is done... ambik yang baik.. yang buruk buang jauh2... be more optimistic...


tambahan :
some subjects need understanding, some need memorzation... some need both... that's where my flaw was... If you ask me 'how' questions 'bout Pharmacology, i'm sure i could answer... but ask 'what' questions, i'd have to refer....
and in exams, "boleh" refer.....